This is the first Saturday I spent by myself. And what do I do? Watch a chick flick. You know now what this post is going to be about, right? Let's see where I can take you.
Suddenly, my computer's internet is back functioning thanks to my new house-mate, who is very good at fixing simple, yet unknown computer stuff. I am now enjoying regular internet, after half a year without it at home. So after 6 months, I'm back in this beautiful blog thing to let me express what is going on in my mind for a few minutes.
I'm glad of what I have. God has given me an amazing box of chocolates, which I'm still re-opening every day and wondering what Forest wondered. I will write this in a story like way, since I just saw something like that.
There is a boy with a broken heart. Big deal. He doesn't feel he's that bad, but he is: no job, no home, no car, no money, no girl, not in his country... but he's not looking towards all of that, just a few things at a time. He misses her, not the country or the car or the job. But she wasn't going to come back, even when he wished for it for a long time. He took off and changed without trying to, and became a better guy. Now, he has a job, a car, a place, and a girl. The country, he's as open as before to make any country his own. After all, he believes firmly that his country is not in this world.
There is a girl with a broken heart. Big deal. She doesn't show others how bad she feels, but she is not that well: not an 'I'm-happy' job, not a 'great place' to live, no boy... and she's looking towards those thing all at the same time. She misses something, still not clear what. But that or those things are not quite going to make her happy. She takes off work and changed trying to do so, and became a better girl. Now, she has another job that even when it is not an "I'm happy' job, its a people job; she has the same not 'great place', but is now full of another energy; and a boy. Putting pieces together, she's clear that God has plans for her and this boy, so is a matter of letting Him work.
Now, here's the fun part. I'm in love with that girl. I want to let her be what she is and help her to be happy with it. I want to clear her way towards being happy with herself. Most of all, I want to share with her the love God has gave both of us, the gifts he gives us everyday, in a sentence: I want to share my box of chocolates with her.
So this is my plan: first, I will pray that we learn to respect each other's lives, which includes ideas, interests, way of being an ways of addressing things, character, sense of humor, plans, relationship with others, friends/family approach, body, etc. Second, I am letting her know that she is gorgeous, amazing, astonishing, beautiful, sexy, intelligent, interesting, sensitive, tough, caring, fun, funny, enjoyable, and faithful. Third, I'm trying to give her the space to be herself and think as she wants, but I'm trying to influence her into thinking positively, wanting what God's wants, and smiling at life more often. My plan has many other pieces, which are not necessarily happening on purpose, but are surely parallel.
Where am I going? Well, after watching a chick flick I don't know exactly where I'm going. I just know that I would like to help her love the box of chocolates she's been given and embrace it with all her love. That way her job will become a good job, her place an exquisite loft, her boy a darling friend, and her love a supernatural one. I'm praying for that. She has to know that, as they say in the movie, we need to leave greatness alone.
